//meet you there

2006-09-04T23:41:00.000+08:00

moved to http://xowednesday.livejournal.com

site update.

2005-12-28T16:58:00.000+08:00

wheeeee! it's been quite a while since i last update. a week already i guess. actually, i've been updating at my lj site. in other words i will use that more often. i won't close down this site. i'll probably find some other uses for it.

http://livejournal.com/users/yoursrottenly

RE-LINKING IS NICE BUT IT IS NOT A MUST.
you don't have to re-link me in other words. i'll leave this site as it is.

:D

[continuation]
i'm using this site as my so-called layout place. because sometimes my blogskins is screwed up so yes, i have two skins here. both of the same concept i guess.

features random models
http://freewebs.com/myrhapsody/modgrey.htm

features random models
http://freewebs.com/myrhapsody/modpurple.htm

features ashlee simpson
http://freewebs.com/myrhapsody/ashlee.htm

features the used
http://freewebs.com/myrhapsody/theused.htm

do comment about the layouts on my tagboard.

LJ account.

2005-12-22T23:42:00.000+08:00

HEY PEOPLE!!
If you do have a Livejournal account, do add me up yeah?
http://livejournal.com/users/yoursrottenly

if i do know you that is.

A part of me died when I let you go

2005-12-22T20:34:00.000+08:00

The 3M course yesterday was fine. Made some new friends. After it ended, Sid and me went to Bugis where i got a green tee for myself. and the auntie was very friendly and it was her son who designed the tees. really cool. and i want to go to bugies again. so many things but not much cash.

I hope there is a mall at Tiara because watching my cousins play in the water theme parks for hours can get boring. Apparently i have to watch, i can't play. You don't have to understand what i'm saying.

And my sister's posted to Canberra Sec. sigh. So near yet so far. hahahahahahahah!

2005-12-20T23:16:00.000+08:00

well, my sister, my dad and i watched spongebob squarepants. and my dad laughed.
i find that weird that an adult actually laugh when watching spongebob. i thought only homocidal maniacs like me laugh when watching spongebob.
and my dad said spongebob is nice to watch.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!

I feel unhealthy again because i ate mushroom swiss double just now.
i'm off to a maths thing tomorrow with shahidah.
i'm off to Tiara at Negeri Sembilan at Malaysia for the weekends.

i want to get more cds.
i want a pair of those converse sneakers.
i want more tops.
and i feel like changing url again.
-groans

serious. i've thought of a couple of names. i warn you, i suck at words.
never mind. i'll leave it till tomorrow to think of new names.

oh wait, i'm sleeping over at granny's tomorrow. which is COOL!
and my sister's going to know where she's posted at on thursday.
i can't wait.

playing: I Stink - mary and her little lambs

2005-12-19T21:54:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!
gagaguguggooguemc rjvnrvmrkevm.

i'm feeling very unhealthy.
this is because i had zinger and pepsi TWICE today.
i really need to go for a jog. or a run. or a jog since i will have a heart attack if i run seeing my unhealthy condition.

MST today, which stands for Mental Skills Training btw because there are a lot of blurheads out there who i have to explain countless times what the hell is MST.

Watched people paint and painted a bit.

Granny's place then where i slept. and i still feel sleepy. i think i lack sleep because my head is spinning and my eyes are heavy.
and i did some english homework. i don't mind starting on history now but my notes are in a mess and how to start?!

2 weeks more before school reopens and the TESTS. the tests that will determine whether you will be promoted fully or something like that. which doesn't make sense. why can't they write
results: pending or something. it's really stupid. we get promoted and then if we fail these tests, we will be downgraded. i <3 my funny school.

aah yes. i heard the n level results this year dropped for our school.
looks like the pressure is on for us then.
crazy o's.

sometimes i am scared about the future.

2005-12-18T19:02:00.000+08:00

I don't know where to look because all the options sounds like crap.
My parents aren't historians nor are they history teachers.

ooh boy! i've a long way to go.
anyway, i submitted this skin i'm using currently. wow. loads of free time.
anyway, do comment and rate.
my acc is twistedmind btw.

sun yat sen, here i come.

The Only Difference Between Martyrdom And Suicide Is Press Coverage

2005-12-18T17:10:00.000+08:00

Panic! At The Disco is nice. My computer sucks big time. I can't listen to songs on purevolume & myspace.

Anyway, new layout is up. I like the image only, minus the text. Hahah! Who cares. I'll probably be sending some of my skins to blogskins. Probably. If i have the time. Right now, i'm off to finish my History essay on Sun Yat Sen.

2005-12-17T22:20:00.000+08:00

As you can see, my blog is in a mess. quite a mess. i have no comment board nor a tagboard currently. i'm working on a new layout. i like how the image turned out but hopefully it looks good once everything is done. i've used the computer for quite a while so i'll finish the layout and upload it by tomorrow.

i slept for more than 10 hours altogether yesterday, yet i feel tired.
and i really want to re-join netball. 'cept that o'level is next year, and like what aidah said
''our time management is very poor so just put aside the idea first."

i just don't get it. they really haven't understand me wholly. they don't know what is going through my mind. they don't know what i plan to do. all they want me is to change into a real girl so quickly. i do admit, i am a little agressive at times. i am unlike other people. i change bit by bit. i don't change overnight.
i know i can be rude at times, but all the time? no, right. besides, i'm not the bitch in the family who trows tantrums or show her attitude.
well let me tell you this. i don't show my feelings. i don't show my attitude. in other words, i bottle things ups.
that's the reason i never share stuff with you nor with my friends. because i don't think you'd understand me.
i'm trying my best to soften up, be more like a girl, but yeah, sometimes you see the aggressive side of me, but that's what you always comment on.
why don't people look at the good side of others and not always on the bad side?
i love being who i am. that's why i find it quite hard to change some part of me. but i know, some parts do need changes. but i'm slowly doing it.

my aggressive days are over for me. it's primary school.
i'm not who you think i am. i am not someone you can understand so well. i'm not someone who can change overnight. and defenitely not someone who shares her secrets around with family or friends.

because i'm not like that. so why can't you accept that fact?

it's things like this that turns me off. i wish i have someone who i can really trust. i just don't get the comfort of sharing things with people, be it best friends or anyone. no offence but it's true.
i'm not trying to be different but i'm just like that. not that people can't be trusted or i can't trust people, i just can't let it out.

2005-12-16T21:33:00.000+08:00

I'm finally back from camp. 4 days and 3 nights in school.
there were times of fun and laughter, and there was pain.
waking up in the wee hours of the morning doing push-ups, sit-ups & whatever.

my neck, shoulders, arms, stomach & legs are aching.
& i'm still sleepy even though i slept in the afternoon just now.

no more sleeping bags. no more queueing up to use the shower. and no more waking up in the morning.

it's good to be back.

playing: perfect10 98.7fm

2005-12-12T22:29:00.000+08:00

Finished packing already. Hoepfully the bag i'm bringing will still fit after the whole camp is over because right now, it fits just nicely. i was halfway through packing & then i gave up. exhausted & headache.

i'm off to watch comedies. i like star world. oh yes. camp means that i have to miss tiramisu. i'm not a fan of tiramisu but because there's a hot guy tomorrow. hahah.
oh yes, to all ricky ullman fans, the guy who acted in Phil of the Future will appear on this thursday's law & order svu at 10pm. again, i can't watch.

sigh.
go charlie, it's your doomsday . .

playing: king without a crown - Matisyahu

2005-12-12T15:28:00.000+08:00

Don't ask who is Matisyahu because i have no idea. But the song's quite nice. I think it's abit reggae-ish or ska-ish. I don't know. I'm not really good at recognizing which genres and stuff.

Laila Godzilla has started packing already! no offence for the godzilla thing. i'm feeling cranky, wanky bla bla. sigh.

CCA camp from 13-16 dec. Which means i'll be back on friday probably around noon.
don't miss me. hahahah!

oh yeah. currently, i'm not installing the tagboard because there is no space. & besides, if i do put up, it will turn put ugly. i changed to this layout is so that you guys don't have difficulty reading.

see. i'm so considerate.
my dad left for sarawak already. & then tomorrow i leave for camp so only my sister & my mom at home. hahahaha.

layout galore.

2005-12-11T20:00:00.000+08:00

i stumbled upon this website which has all those awesome layouts.
i like.

- slept late last night. did a livejournal account. i need time to get use to the html stuff. quite confusing & it drove me nuts.
- my dad's off to sarawak again tomorrow.
- i'm off to camp on tuesday.

chehgugnw;fjg!!&

2005-12-09T12:08:00.000+08:00

my dad switched phones with me because his is spoilt. for a day only so any messages will be entertained at the end of the day.

that's all. i want to do some quizzes. gahhh.

buy me lemons and trees, throw away all the rubies.

2005-12-08T20:43:00.000+08:00

Slept at granny's for two nights. Which was awesome. I wish there was a computer & an internet connection there so at least I can sleep there forever and ever. The flat's much smaller, 3 room compared to my 5 room which i very much prefer 3 room because i hate big houses. and the cats and the never finishing food & my grandparents & i can sleep anytime i want as long as i don't make too much noise. grrr. i hate it here.

so i tried to do maths but i still haven't completed unit 1. And 7 units more to go. wth.
well, i at least have the reason to stay up late.

''Dad! I have tons of homework to do. & if you're gonna make me go malaysia, then we have to do some give & take here."

yeah. whatever that means. i'm planning to stay up late tonight anyway. it's not worth it that i try hard to sleep but i can't. in the end, i lie in bed and stare at the ~~stars~~ ceiling.

2005-12-07T20:13:00.001+08:00

Hey people! My printer's run out of ink. There is about 3 more weeks to school reopen. Minus camp & overseas holidays, it's about 1 week plus. My English is not even halfway done, neither is my Maths.

Seriously, are the teachers going to mark them when school reopens? gahhh! i'm outta here.

2005-12-07T20:13:00.000+08:00

2005-12-07T12:52:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was fun. I thought i was late meeting Belle & Sid but i was the earliest. Supposed to meet at 9am but I had a tummyache. In the end, Sid's jsut woken up so we decided to meet at 10.

Trained to Orchard & bought tickets for Aeon Flux. Oh yes, & we met the Couple in White for a couple of times while we're at Orchard. Breakfast cum lunch at LJS at Far East. Tried the Binet toilet thing or however you spell it. Then we watched Aeon Flux. The movie isn't really good as i thought. The storyline is quite complicated & you can only finally get the idea halfway through the movie when things start to fall into place & quite make sense.
If you the type who loves to see a girl bash up others, gunfight, Charlize Theron & a little bit of romance, go and watch. Not worth my 7 bucks to me. Maybe 5 will do. hah.

Then window shopped around. Went to Heeren where we saw Vernon A & the boy who acted as Lee Tok Kong's son. Then we decided to proceed to Northpoint where we saw the MP, Halimah Yakob is her name, i guess.
In other words, met quite a lot of people yesterday.

Played at the fitness corner for a while. Then proceed home . .

Okay, enough crap. Maths homework here i come.

playing : forward motion - Relient K

2005-12-05T21:12:00.000+08:00

I'm meeting my girls tomorrow. Movie in the morning & shopping the rest of the day. :D
Sleeping over at my granny's too tomorrow. I hope it stretches for a a few days. It's fun over there. My grandparents never really bother that i sleep late, which is around 3am. Unlike here, if it's bedtime for my parents, it's bedtime for me. & their bedtime is 10plus which is really irritating because i can't sleep early. Unless i'm tired.

Call me weird but i think i enjoy doing Maths. I'm sick of English already. I only finished the 1996 paper & i'm halfway through Maths Unit 1. I'm almost done with my Malay.

CCA camp from 13-16 december.

& I'm off to Tiara which is at Negeri Sembilan which is at Malaysia during the Christmas Holidays. We're staying at this resort which i think should be fun & nice.

Sigh. At the rate i'm going, i doubt i can really finish revision & homework.

2005-12-05T10:43:00.000+08:00

TIME GOES BY...SO SLOWLY.

nyeah. i'm still here. i need a new mp3. i don't mind handphones. my N6610i is still usable so what for buy a new one. most importantly, i can still sms & call using the phone.
so i want the

ipod nano

GAHH! i saw the white nano at courts. at first i thought of buying the neeon or however you spell it. but i think i want the nano. & my dad said he'll buy for me next year. probably a new mp3 will come out by then. but nvm, nano is good enough for me.
& i want sims 2 too. my cousins borrowed my sims deluxe edition & i've still yet to get it back.

okay. i'm seriously outta here.

playing : nothing.

2005-12-05T09:26:00.000+08:00

HAHAH! new layout. not again?! i think i'll stick with this for some time. simple layout.

so i found out where timbuktu is.

TIMBUKTU
A city of central Mali near the Niger River northeast of Bamako

& i found it on the atlas already. Hurray!

playing : the sound of thunder & the howling of the wind

2005-12-05T06:08:00.000+08:00

wow! it is so easy to wake up in the morning these days. today i woke up at 4.45am, partly because it started to rain & i was feeling thirsty. it is 6am already & my family is still in bed.

i'm online because i want to find this place called timbukto/timbuktwo or however you spell that place. is it in africa?

my mom has just woken up & i just asked her the question & she gave me this reply

"what kind of place is that?"

great.

playing : dance dance - Fall Out Boy

2005-12-04T19:08:00.000+08:00

I'm blogging because i want to say that the colour(s) of the sky is very pretty!! blue with a mixture of pink, or magenta & a little orange. so sweet.

okay, the pink is gone & the sky is darker right now. grr! how fast the sun sets. more later!!

buy me diamonds and rubies & throw away all the candies.

2005-12-04T13:32:00.000+08:00

Sunday, sunday, sunday.
Less than a month to 2006. great. i haven't completed half of my homework & i haven't revise yet. good luck to me.

i've been waking up really early these few days. 4.30am to be exact. then i just lie in bed & force myself to sleep but in vain. then i got up from bed at 6 & watch tv. tv, computer & books.

i'll blog more later. i'm off to some wedding.

playing : be my escape - relient k

2005-11-30T15:23:00.000+08:00

And I’m begging you, I’m begging you, I’m begging you to be my escape.

okay, i know they've been playing it so frequently on the radio, or if not it is Who I Am Hates Who I've Been, but i really love this song. i've heard of relient k and listened to a few of their songs which are quite okay. & i keep repeating the above phrase while having POA just now. i volunteered to go, not that i got a call from POA teacher to go alright. Quite okay. Thankfully, we didn't do any trial balance. Had lunch at Northpoint. I've yet to try the 859 service.

okay, i'm tempted to make another layout. HAH! see how lah.

playing : anthem of our dying day - Story of The Year

2005-11-28T17:03:00.000+08:00

Oh well do you, do you do you want to?

i decided to not watch the game but to do my sun yat-sen research. what game? Singapore VS Myanmar lah. The game is my lullaby. I'll just wait for 7pm for the end results. HAH!

i've been spending my time on the computer, basically to make layouts. & it takes up a lot of my time so i'll do my best to control the temptation & really start on the assignments.

gahhh! the cramps acting up again.
& i want to watch Chronicles of Narnia lah!! hahah.

playing : clocks - Coldplay

2005-11-27T15:01:00.000+08:00

Aah. I wanted to put a section for whatever music I'm listening to currently, but it's troublesome. & since I put songs as my titles, so the section is not necessary. Re-editted my layout. So how? The previous one was a bit retarded so re-did the whole thing. & edited the profile section a bit. This time, it took me quite a while.

*cracking my brain to think of what to write next*

okay, so let me tell you a story. a story entitled "What I did from morning till now."

I woke up at 6am. I don't know what's wrong with me but I've been waking up at 6am these few days. Which is a good thing because I am doing my morning prayers now instead of sleep through it. Then I watched Channel 32. Unfabulous, Zoey 101, Drake & Josh, Avatar: The Last Airbender etc. & I also did my English a bit. Then my mom went for driving lessons & then my dad left for Sarawak. Then i started on my layout.

My mom bought Macdonalds so I had that for breakfast. Then I continued on the layout & then my mom asked me,

" When are you going to shower?"

so i stopped halfway & shower & did my afternoon prayers. Now, I'm typing this entry.
& at the same time, i'm feeling rather tired & suddenly, my brain sent a message.

" You better stop now because you have :
-English wksts & TYS
-Maths TYS Unit 1-8 except 5.4 & wksts
-Physics wkbk & TYS
-Chemistry wksts & TYS
-History essay
-Malay wksts

& you have approxiamtely a month to complete them AND finish your sec 3 syllabus revision,"

i hereby conclude that my assignments & revision revolved around this thing called
the TEN-YEAR SERIES.

aww! i miss my dad.

2005-11-27T13:15:00.000+08:00

My mommy is telling me to take a shower already. HAHAH! how funny.
My daddy is on a plane right now. He's off to Sarawak.
I'M MISSING HIM ALREADY! & I MEAN IT!!
i will be reminding him to get me whatever that is nice he finds there. hah! he'll be there for 4 stinking days. SO LONG!!

okay. my sister is out of the bathroom. MY TURN!

[song] The kids aren't alright - The Offspring

2005-11-26T18:01:00.000+08:00

HAH! new layout done. took me 1.5 hours to complete everything. i think Charlize Theron looks cool in Aeonflux. I prefer those layouts which either has long & wide tables or just normal tables with the scrolls. Nowadays, people love those navigations where you press a button and then your profile, blog, tag etc. appears in this box. I don't really like those kind because i find it irritating when it comes to the html thing & sometimes, when you insert music into your web, and then you press a button to go from 'profile' to 'tag' for example, the song will double. which is annoying actually. ah well, different people, different preferences.

my sister chose to go to northview sec. at first it was canberra then it's northview. she had a hard time choosing. can't wait to see her enter secondary school life. come to think of it, it would be quite okay to have your sister in the same school. HAH!

okay people. comment on the layout okay!

i need to fix my brain

2005-11-26T15:41:00.000+08:00

I don't like the LONG journey to school. I was there to buy my school books. Met some friends & teachers since it's open house. Luckily, it's only a few books this year. Not like last year. Thick books which i had to drag home by myself. & i'm tired already. wonder how next year is going to be like.

all i want to do now is to crack my brain & work my brain cells for a new layout. but i don't have a theme.

oh, & before i end,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUFI!!

[music] the chicken little techno song thing? heard it on teevee.

2005-11-25T20:15:00.000+08:00

okay, i haven't been getting enough sleep because i'm freaked out over that emily rose movie. oh well, it is the first western horror movie that managed to freak me out. i'm affected only at night. other than that, i'm fine. hahah!

i'm procrastinating again. haven't done any homework for nearly two days already. and my sister got her PSLE results back. Her aggregate is 190. so she's got a choice of going to express or na. & my dad and my sister had a 'fight' just now on which school she's going to go to. Since she opted for express stream & so do my parents, my school is out. yay! it's just a bit boring to have your sister in the same school again.

ooh well, buying my books tomorrow & it's my little cousin's birthday! he's turning ONE years old. and then we'll have dinner with some of my cousins & their family on Sunday together. FUN! & i think it's yishun town's open house tomorrow too. gee! i just found out.

2005-11-23T08:50:00.000+08:00

i woke up at 7am this morning, which is 2hrs before. & i can't go back to sleep because it's really cold. feels like i'm at cameron highlands.

new layout next week probably. muahahahah!

okay, i want to watch cartoons. GOOD MORNING MORTALS!!

[music] the silence of the chilly night. hah!

2005-11-23T00:03:00.000+08:00

i'm still recovering from whatever that is going on in my life lately. what i can say is, i have to learn to adapt to this whole thing i guess. it will happen again, i know.
when the incident happened, i was figuring whether i should go ahead with this week's plans or cancel on them. but then again, it's not nice to cancel plans on a last minute notice.

Watched Sky High with my sister this morning. Popcorn & coke for 'breakfast'. I know I said Harry Potter was awesome, but i have to admit, Sky High was better. Some parts were funny, some sweet but overall, it is a movie worth watching. Ah well, i have to take back my words then. About HP being awesome. I don't deny some parts were boring & a bit draggy. I still preferred the movie HP & the Prisoner of Azkaban. That's the best HP installment for me so far.

My holidays, i predict, are packed. Outing with friends, juggling homework & revision & having to read books for book review. & camp & what else. Metta Cattery has to wait till after O's lah.
& i want to go to borders and get more books. i think my money's worth buying books than other things.

currently, i'm reading this so-called chick flick kind of book. Teen Idol by Meg Cabot. My sister's book to be exact. I love Meg Cabot's books.

2005-11-21T14:38:00.000+08:00

my mood is as low as ever.
i'm trying to forget but it's hard. the voices, everything. it's a good idea if i be like Dumbledore and i can extract that memory from me. that's what i really want to do right now.

at this point of time, i really want to run away, not anywhere, but to my granny's place. that is the home to me. not here. it's just a house. not a home. i hate this place.

there you have it. i'm suffering from hate-where-i-am-now syndrome.
all i need now is to get out of this suffocating place.

sky high in the morning with my sister tomorrow & exorcism of emily rose with maidens the next day.
& i need to construct a timetable for myself.

off to complete as much english assignments then, see y'all.

singing my own song.

2005-11-21T13:18:00.000+08:00

first, you become FREAKHOLES, then, you turn into MANIACS
& i'm supposed to be happy and unknowing about it all?

people do go around with this mask called FAKE.

what's the purpose of Hari Raya then may i know?
'' I'm sorry for my past wrongdoings. '' ask yourself. is this sentence said sincerely?
or is this sentence just said for the sake of saying it? plus, all the wrongdoings will occur like a cycle again.

everyone is pretending. pretending & pretending. marvellous actors & actresses.
i am pretending too. pretending not to know what's going on.
sometimes, bottling things up is so much better than telling others. not that i don't trust them, i just don't feel like telling them.

i'm going to start living my own world. i talk when i have to. nobody bothers about me & i do my own things. things are better that way isn't it?

YOU DISGUST ME!

oh no, i'm not trying to gross you out with my lovvvvee life. when i'm not involve.
let's just say, IT'S WORST THAN THAT!

[Song] The Used - Under Pressure

2005-11-19T18:51:00.000+08:00

new layout. influenced when i saw The Family Stone's trailer. Loads of movies to watch but so little money. Loads of things to do but so little money & time.

List of things to do during Nov/Dec holidays.

- assignments completed.
- clear sec 3 syllabus.
- volunteer @ metta cattery.
- MOVIES. [chicken little/legend of zorro/chronicles of narnia/the family stone/sky high/just like heaven & more.]
- meet up / catch up with Nabellaks & Shahidooos.

GRRR!

& i guess i'll be watching Harry Potter again. My sis is dragging me to go watch with her, of course, she's paying. yesterday, i wanted to. but then today, when i already watched so many trailers of HP on tv, & thinking about it again, I feel like watching other movies!

??

2005-11-18T20:16:00.000+08:00

Caught the Harry Potter & Goblet of Fire movie. It was awesome. Some would say otherwise, no doubt. But for me, I'd say it was awesome. Some people went to watch, hoping to watch something that totally follows the book. Please, the first 3 didn't follow. & anyway, it's a movie and that's a book. I read the books. & I do agree some parts differ but i went to watch it because i know i will enjoy the movie. not because i'm expecting something from the book itself. & if you guys are wondering whether to catch it or not, after listening to other's view on it, watch it if you are confident your money won't be wasted. Different people have different views.

Viktor Krum looks funny. Cedric Diggory looks hot in some parts. Hermione, yeah, she's pretty, but the older she is, somehow, her beauty is fading. That's what I feel. But i love the Wealey Twins hilarious acts. Lord Voldemort looks horrible.

Well, i did enjoy myself! :DDD

2005-11-17T21:10:00.000+08:00

My sister is such an idiot sometimes. She has a phone but doesn't pick up calls most of the time. Of course, that drives my dad nuts. You have a phone, and you don't pick up calls. Why have a phone in the first place? And she wants a brand new phone some more. Even I give her the latest model, will she pick up her calls anyway?

She's in deep shit, really. My dad's so mad when he left home just now. Well, I won't be surprised if he breaks my sister's flip phone into half. I called her so many times & sent her messages telling her to call me back. Yet, that dumb girl doesn't check her phone. I mean, at least have the initiative to call me back. At least, it saves her from the terror of my dad's anger. But she doesn't get it.

She should know my dad's temper. She should know better than to mess with my dad. Yeah, he's funny etc., but when he's serious, he means it. And yet, she still is so stubborn. Then when she gets scolded , she will start to sulk. And when my dad's angry, my mom's angry too. So both of them are angry & they get irritated at the slightest things. In other words, they have a go at me. Like telling me to put my uniform into the wardrobe & continue to say that I don't do anything at home yet I can't even put my uniform in the wardrobe.

Some people say that my sister & I look alike. I won't comment on that. But character wise, we're different.My mom just got off the phone with my sister. She's ordering her to return home immediately. Oh yeah, she's practically shouting already.

I too don't want her to get scolded. But she is just so stubborn. Which parents doesn't call their child when they are still out at 9pm & they are 12 year old some more?

Oh boy! This is going to be a wild night.

[Song] Bayside - Devotion & Desire

2005-11-16T20:34:00.000+08:00

Gee! 4th post of the day. Something cheered me up. And they're CATS! I went surfing the net & I was reminded of this place where they take care of the stray cats at Pasir Ris. Learnt about it from a show on Suria. It's called Metta Cattery. Most of the cats for adoption are big already. Different from those kittens at Cat Welfare Organisation.

So if my mom doesn't allow me to spend my holidays learning guitar, she can't say NO to volunteering my services for those cats right?

I'M VOLUNTEERING MOTHER!

Yay! i can't wait. But i have to fix up a timetable first.

catty catty HERE I COME!

[Song] Jack's Mannequin - Mixed Tape

2005-11-16T19:49:00.000+08:00

GAHHH! I was all excited about the guitar course & my mom let down all my hopes.

[Me] Mom, can I enter a guitar course?
[Mom] Why do you want to enter for? It's so expensive & you're going to have tuition . . (she went on but i interrupted)
[Me] But it's only $50.
[Mom] Why waste your time on something unnecessary? (she went on again but i was just so upset i didn't bother to listen.)

so $50 for my sister's guitar course is okay but for me, it's no. Just because i want to enrol for tuition, she said it was too expensive. wth. where else can i get a place where i can learn guitar this cheap? Yamaha wants $100 plus the last time i went to check it.

To her it's not important/unnecessary, but . . sigh. forget it lah. i just want to learn/take up something new & she goes all ''it's unnecessary.'' on me. and my sister can learn guitar for 50 bucks and i can't. wtf.

so now, i'm searching for tuition centres preferably around yishun area, maybe other neighbouring areas as well. sickening. hopefully i can find a centre which provides good tuition & costs less that $100.

oh yeah, my mom didn't like the whole tuition idea either. my dad too thinks tuition is unnecessary. URGH! i don't hate them but they piss me off big time at times. and they keep blaming me that the reason i don't do well is that i don't study hard enough/last minute. grrr!
wth. i need tuition so that i can learn new topics before the teachers start on them. at least i get a headstart on it since i'm slow & blur when it comes to absorbing stuff like maths & sciences.

why can't they understand?

& my sister injured her finger from playing guitar. she's got a deep cut on her finger tip. gross! even the most parts of the tissue is stained with blood.

Fine! I'll make my sister teach me guitar. Teaching others is also learning isn't it?

2005-11-16T18:28:00.000+08:00

Blogger is quite sickening at times. Either I'm dumb or blogger is irritating. Can't copy & paste lyrics to my blog. The words get all bunched up. I like the lyrics of this song.

Truth by Seether.

They played this on Launchcast. The song was alright, but i like the lyrics more. Some parts of it sounds quite true, in a way.

Now that i can finally enjoy a bit, the feeling is wonderful. I don't know. I just feel a bit more relaxed. The past days have been quite busy & exhausting. Finishing up all the assignments & getting conitnuous lectures from various teachers about our slow pace/laziness. Even today, we still continue to receive the same feedback.

Well, the end of this entry alright. I'm off to squash my sister because she's still playing the damn guitar. GAHHH!

okay, i think i want to learn some stuff from her. well, she has to right? since i lent her my purple pick. she HAS TO!

Morcubine Porcupine. hee! :D

2005-11-16T17:46:00.000+08:00

I learnt that Eddie Guerrero has passed away yesterday. Though it's been 7365494 years since i last watched wrestling, i do know who he is & watched some of the wrestling matches he's been in. the last time i watched was back in primary school, partly influenced by granny who enjoys watching it. it's really shocking since he's young, about 38 yeats old, younger than my parents, and fit as well, and he passed away. i happened to blog-hopped to a stranger's blog, with the help of the 'next blog' button and learnt about it.

"WWE is deeply saddened by the news that Eddie Guerrero has passed away. He was found dead this morning in his hotel room in Minneapolis. Eddie is survived by his wife Vickie and daughters Shaul, 14, Sherilyn, 9, and Kaylie Marie, 3."

following statement from wwe.com .

sometimes, i feel lucky to have friends who care for you when you're sick, listen to you & it makes it easier for you to pour your hearts out to them. & i really treasure them. they don't hide who they are, they're honest & trustworthy. and we can just crap all the way. super fun!
well, in particular, the maidens. they're full of crap but at the same time, they care about you etc.

lunched with amanda & shivani. shouldn't have eaten fast-food. it gives me the tummyache. so i still ate. then trained to woodlands & checked for available time slots for Exorcism of Emily Rose. watched the trailer. some of the faces looked quite freaky at first but then it's okay. & we took some postcards & amanda started writing 'invitations'. walked to a few shops & one of them has got all these really nice shirts. wonderful prints! then went to woodgrove mall. checked out the details for the group guitar course. and i bought 2 picks, red and purple. so hopefully my parents would let me join the course. so this calls for TIME MANAGEMENT.
then the tummyache totally hit me. i had those black-out signals already. my head was 'light'/'high' as though i'm on drugs or something.

ARGHHH! My sister is playing the Titanic song on the guitar!! She better stop playing or i'll smash the guitar. yeah, i'm so jealous!!

Hairy Potty this Friday & Emaley Rose next Wednesday. Wheeeeeeeeeee!

Oh, & dental appointment 8.20am tomorrow, CCA meeting 1pm tomorrow. So, bringing my homework to do tomorrow while waiting for the clock to strike 1!

& E Squared Camp is finally OVER! :DDDDDDDD

2005-11-15T20:52:00.000+08:00

let's see. 2nd post of the day? not bad aye. hah!

i'm seeing the assignments piling up one by one now since the E Squared Camp is almost over. it's official that the teachers who taught me chemistry & physics are leaving. grrr! why do they all have to leave now? the p, then the sciences teachers, who's next huh?!

ooh yes! went to a family gathering thing at m'sia last sunday. and i like this guy's smile. he has that sweet, humble/innocent kind of smile. gahhh! i like. hah! too bad i can't infer whether he's s'porean or m'sian. and it's irritating. spent time with my cousins. & we're going to pick one day around next week or so, to go out. cool! & my cousin is going to pass some cds to me too lah.

been listening to alternative rock for the past one hour. this kind of music with screaming guys in it sounds nicer when you blast it through the speakers but not earphones. they give me the headaches. good! and i removed the software off already because my dad told me to. gahhh! but good thing i guess.

okay people. i shall blog more maybe tomorrow, next week, next year, next century.
yadayadayadayadayadayada.

So goodnight, goodnight
You're embarrassing me
You're embarrassing you
So goodnight, goodnight
Walk away from the door
Walk away from my life
So Goodnight

GAHHH!

2005-11-15T18:55:00.000+08:00

tomorrow's the last day of E Squared camp. terrific. then watching exorcism of emily rose + hairy potty & gobble of fryer sometime this week. Yipee!

please smile more. 'cos i like . .

HAH!

howdie dowdie rowdie.

2005-11-12T17:51:00.000+08:00

breakfast with maidens at Macs. amandarolelle was late. not surprising. HAH! while we're there, there was an incident which happened which i don't really want to write here. to some, it may be quite sensitive subject. to others, it's just merely something. but whatever it is, if you're curious, just ask me if i'm online.

then we went to the post office, the park and then we went to some pet shops which had all these adorable animals. FUN! then went to northpoint. bought a handphone pouch & a set of earrings. my mom told me to be careful because it is cheap so i might get infection and stuff. so i have to make it a habit to take off my earrings every 2 days or so.

i'm running out of ideas.

replies

[fred] my tagboard is ODD. i guess that is a good thing. we'll be having fun and you guys have to study. but still, the next year, you all enjoy, we all start studying already.

2005-11-11T20:48:00.000+08:00

NA students have already finished their E Squared Camp. How unfair! but i guess life for the upcoming months are like now, busy and tons of work and worksheets. maybe after the whole study camp is over, i'll take a break for a week and then get down to serious revision.

went to the sun yat-sen museum or something like that. quite alright. spent an hour there, taking down notes for our essay homework. i think i don't really mind. at least i have something to do. and the whole hari raya mood is almost gone now for me. school takes up quite a lot of my time these week plus next so i don't have the free time to go jalan-jalan with my friends. didn't expect this year's hari raya to be so mundane. but it doesn't really matter. at least i did have some fun last week. my sister went for house visiting with her friends already so obviously she's got more cash that i do. she is enjoying herself now.

wonder how her life will be when she enters secondary school life? HAH! i'd love to see that smile erased off from her face. nyahahahah! well, i didn't say i was nice.

and this weekend, tomorrow, i guess i'm going to be stuck at home the whole time. my friend cancelled her open house so i'm considering going to belle's open house then since she leave really nearby. and then off to batu pahat,malaysia to visit some relatives bla bla bla.

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[amanda] amandarolelle! i AM odd. don't need to tell me that. i should be the one crying since i'm not the 'you' you're waiting for. HAH!

[pinkyglitterx] cik shahidah oiii! you,belle & me gotsta go out someday. then we watch harley potter together!

[fred] then buy vcd/dvd lah. everyday also can watch.

i shot you down, bang bang.

2005-11-10T20:32:00.000+08:00

my tagboard is really retarded. so if you see my name there, i'm just trying to add a new post to refresh it because all i see is my first-est tag.

I like myspace. You get to go to the different bands myspaces' and listen to music, in the comfort of wherever you are. Matchbook Romance Monsters is nice, like the intro. I've been listening to songs randomly.

And i bought a pair of headphones. should have stick to normal earphones. the headphones is driving me crazy. wasted 27 bucks on that freaking thing, which is supposed to be my hari raya collection. maybe if my mom is not broke anymore, i'll get her to buy me a pair of earphones. and there's a lot of movies i have to watch but it's just the money i need.

-Sky High
-Exorcism of Emily Rose
-Harry Potter & The Goblet of Fire
-Just Like Heaven

so if i count the tickets plus the food & drinks, it probably will add up to $15. So i multiply it by 4 and i get $60. WOW! so expensive. Maybe i'll cancel Sky High since my sister will probably get my parents to buy that. So i take away $15 it makes it $45.

i can't believe i'm already talking about life after E Squared Camp. and there's CCA camp around december. 4D3N?! i just think it is too long. i can't even stand 3D2N and they stretch it for another one more day & one more night. i'm not really looking forward to it yet.

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pinkyglitterx: WEYYY! not sure. i have a friend who is having an open house too. text me!
unknown: i think i know who you are because i've seen your nick in some people's tagboard. and yeah, 'thanks' for flooding. hahah!

it's a choice of whether you want or you don't.

2005-11-08T19:58:00.000+08:00

I decided to take a break from watching Tong Xin Yuan. That Fyn is just really retarded, in an irritating way. It pisses me off. Sometimes Dayang really need a tight slap on the face or needs his brain to be operated. I can't stand it when the weak gets bullied and the stronger ones bully the weak even more. And the show mostly revolves around that. I don't watch it that often now.

I'm not addicted to blogging, i'm tempted to do it. Any difference? Okay, so 'tanah merah' did something really freaky+psycho at the same time in school today. I wanted to laugh, but I can't. At the same time, i'm quite freaked out not because of him, but because of what he did. Can feel the pain lah like that. I don't really know him much yet but the impression he leaves on us . .

Only time will tell. I have to live with him for a year more right? Whatever. I'm taking the exam so why bother.

And I think I might have talked out of point during the conversation part. But it's all over. Best of Luck to the groups who are going to take the oral. :D
Okay, i think i want to be a psychiatrist. NYAHAHAHAH! But seriously. And to be one, i have to enter JC. something which i'm not interested in. GAHHH! So, what now? 10 points for O's? I haven't even started on any serious revision nor have i started on the asssignments given during the E Squared camp. How 'studious/responsible/hardworking' am i?

I hate it when he thinks i smoke. wth. do i even look like i smoke? i can't even consume too much of cold/spicy stuff because they give me the coughs. and because of these coughs, he assumed i smoke. URGH! i can't even cough, what do you expect me to do? i had to hold on my cough once just so to avoid from listening and answering your irritating nags and questions. i wish you could try it. you don't know how painful it is. it feels like it's going to burst anytime in there, the system i mean.

people are celebrating hari raya and i'm in school trying to cram information into my fabulous brain. misery . .

we are just too proud to admit our mistakes even though we know we are in the wrong.

a brand new day with the same routine.

2005-11-07T19:02:00.000+08:00

First day of the E Squared camp was okay. I felt as though it was a normal school day for me, not a holiday because there seemed to be a lot of people around and also, a lot of things going on around the school. And there were two lorries which were already ferrying some of the stuff to the holding school. Even half of the tables and benches in the canteen have been ferried over to sembawang. so where the hell do we sit for recess then tomorrow?

and while i was sitting and watching people walk pass, i saw the seniors or the o'level candidates leaving the school after their paper. somehow, it panicked me a bit. i was wondering if i can survive the gruelling hours studying and bullying my brains to absorb as many information as possible, at the same time, the pressure to do well too. and that too makes me wonder again what i really want to be when i grow up. and that too made me panicked because this is the right time to decide what you really want to do when you grow up. you have to see the big picture. i wanted a job to do with either animals or mentally challenged people like kids with down syndrome maybe. i want to do those kind of things. when i told people i want to become a reporter, i wasn't that serious about that job. half of me choose to be that, but half said no.

i guess i wasn't really interested in that kind of job. seriously, can people please give me advice on how to go about to determine the right goal? i have the interest and i do have the passion to do the job but what kind of jobs are there? and what kind of courses or studies or degree or whatever do i have to take in order to achieve that goal?

please help me by contributing your comments/opinions. i really need it.

and that reminds me of the english oral we're having tomorrow. and i'm 4th in line. and i know this weekend is going to be tiring and busy for me. whether i'm going to my friends' open house is still pending because my family maybe will be going off to johor either saturday or sunday.

quizzes galore. i'm bored. so let's go.

2005-11-06T14:15:00.000+08:00

You Are 70% Weird

You're so weird, you think you're *totally* normal. Right?But you wig out even the biggest of circus freaks!

How Weird Are You?

You Should Get a JD (Juris Doctor)

You're logical, driven, and ruthless.You'd make a mighty fine lawyer.

What Advanced Degree Should You Get?

A lawyer?!

Your Superhero Profile

Your Superhero Name is The Wind CowYour Superpower is Artificial IntelligenceYour Weakness is SailorsYour Weapon is Your Lunar DartsYour Mode of Transportation is Flying Monkeys

What's your Superhero Name?

Your Fortune Is

War does not determine who is right, war determine who is left.

The Wacky Fortune Cookie Generator

Your Blogging Type is Logical and Principled

You like to voice your well thought out opinions on your blog.And if someone doesn't what you write, you really don't care!Serious and blunt, sometimes people take your blog the wrong way.But you're a true and loyal friend to those who truly get you.

What's" Your Blogging Personality?

sigh. i wonder.

ps. the links are a bit haywire. don't blame me. just go blogthings.com if you're interested.
i'm going to do MORE! :D

2005-11-04T16:11:00.000+08:00

My Jasc PSP is an idiot. The brushes have gone haywire so I can't get a layout done. I've decided to be plain and boring so I've come out with the simplest of the simplest of the simplest layout. As long as i'm able to blog, it's good enough. and i've ripped off my tagboard from my blog. so whatever comments you have, go click the 'brain cells' thing at the end of a post.

you guys should really check out http://museum-of-twits.blogspot.com . Got this site from Alvina's blog. It'll give you a good laugh. Entertaining, yes. I don't usually laugh at people for their stupidity but this is just pure evil. Evil because it damages my eyes, brains and my mood.

Take Friendster for example. Some people love to decorate their profile. I have nothing against that. But as I said in my previous post, i really find it an eyesore when some profiles have animated backgrounds, especially when their tables are transparent and their font colour is black. because most of the time, their animated background is black with glowing stuff on it and just how do you expect me to read your profile? I don't mind if you want to use animated backgrounds but please, go and make your background opaque and your font colour visible enough for others to read.

and i don't get why they love to change the spelling of the english words. i don't understand how 'cute' can become 'kweet'. how do you pronounce that anyway? at least make it, kee-yoot or something like that but 'kweet'?? and they even have mastered the art of tYpInG lIkE ThIs!

sigh.

2005-11-03T23:19:00.000+08:00

first day of hari raya was quite alright. it was great meeting up with my cousins and realatives whom i didn't even know i was related to them. oh yes, and my cousin freaked me out. the last time i saw him was last year so it has been a year since i last saw him. and i still remembered that he was taller than me and his body built is average. but this year, not only is he much taller, he's more muscular now. when he sat down, he looked perfectly normal. but when he stood up, he looked like big show. that freaked me out. and he's only 13! well, i guess it isn't that surprising since he joined rugby as his cca. he really freaked me out.

and every single house we went, it was the same dishes served over and over again. and i just realised, i haven't had rendang. but i'm too full to stuff anymore food inside. and my dad too said that right now, i should focus more on academic rather than get myself involved in realtionships. and i made myself clear that i'm not interested in any relationships right now because a number of guys these days are only interested in sexual pleasure. no offence but it is reality. and the evidence is just out there. if you read the papers, you should know. of course, sometimes, the girls do share part of the blame.

and this site that i went to was really hilarious but true. they're talking about some of the girls who try to act cute and stuff like that. and about the friendster profiles, i wish they will refrain from using animated backgrounds if the backgrounds of the tables are going to transparent. I CAN'T READ ANYTHING! if my mood is okay, i may highlight the whole page but if not, i just click the X at the top right-hand corner of the window. why bother to read something that just irritate the hell out of you.

2005-11-02T21:26:00.000+08:00

a quick post before i shut down, or more like watch Salam Lebaran,

To all Muslims out there,

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI!
Maaf Zahir Batin.

:D

2005-10-31T22:08:00.000+08:00

boohoo! no more ANTM. project runway now, maybe i'll watch it. and i <3 bananas & papayas.
sometimes, i find tong xin yuan a bit draggy. so i watch halfway because i hate to find out what happens next. so to avoid the suspense, i do other stuff. okay, that's just out of the blue.

i'm still wondering what kind of layout i want to do next. i don't want to do layouts with pictures anymore. i'm tired of finding pictures. i shall make use of the brushes. and 2 more days to HARI RAYA. i don't really enjoy hari raya, besides the food. the thing is, everytime we go for visits, those relatives never fail to compare my height with my sis. I know i'm shorter than my sis by 8485957398585895metres, and i know you guys have been telling me this since i don't know when, but must you guys rake up the same thing over and over again? like as if i didn't realise i am short. like as if there is no other topic to talk about. if i can get over this height thing, then why can't you? i'm the one suffering from height problems, not you, so why bother? irritating and i hate it. and i hate doing last minute shopping too. because it is sickening and uncomfortable having your parents actually asking you ''are you done yet?'', ''have you chosen?'', ''which one you want?'',''this is better than that?'', etc. and in the end, you get so confused that you leave the store empty-handed. it is hard to make choices when other people keep bombarding you with their opinions.

lalalalala. i better go shower then i go sleep or watch tv or do other stuff.
and i better get started on my english hw too. no fooling around hidayah.

2005-10-31T15:28:00.000+08:00

-i don't know what i'm doing here anyway.
-i'm not fasting due to some reasons and anyway, there's nothing to eat so might as well fast along with my family.
-my mouse is being irritating.
-friendster is being irritating too.
-i'm sick of blogging. i doubt anyone reads this boring blog of mine & sooner or later, i might just dump this thing.
-i want to get a new mp3 & sims2. i decided that i won't get a new handphone until my current one is officially spoilt. soooo, hopefully, i will get loads of green packets for hari raya.nyeheheh!
-i don't get why people often call others mat/minah without realising they are one themselves. i admit i used to do that, but after what my granny said ''don't try to 'label' others without realising you are one yourself. you may just be like them one day.''
-i need to change to a new skin soon.

all good things will come to an end.

2005-10-28T11:48:00.000+08:00

the brown yearbook. pandai-pandai koranglah rotate kepaler lorang eh. pandai-pandai kepaler berpusing, akhirnya terputus tali urat dier. the design for this year's yearbook is nice. and because it is BROWN!!! yay. it looks simple but very modernised kind of thing.

ohwells, i'm exhausted and i'm sleepy. Nevertheless, i'll continue to blog since there is just a lot of things to let out and noted?

today was supposed to be special programme for first half and then it's homeroom, that's what is written in the form. the special programme was actually to thank MR TAN TH for his service and dedication to the school. There was an informal kind of parade and then small performances. The sec 2 band was really good. then we did the chicken dance and Mr Tan gave his last speech. I'm gonna miss his speeches, his ''WE WILL EXCEL'', he was a really sporting principal. and he personally went around to every class to say his goodbye and lastest advices and talk. I wish him all the best in continuing his studies in Melbourne.

this year, for me, is rather unfortunate. though we did had a lot of good times, but somehow, it is rather unfair and unfortunate. i'm not sure who's retained/transferred but i think no one did and i'm glad to hear that, knowing that none in 3e5 is going to leave the class. it has been a rather worrying year for me. i slacked much more that the past years. it's not that studies is not a priority to me, but i lack discipline. i laze around and i procrastinate. the results i get, is a good example of the kind of attitude i had for this year. the adam khoo course i went through was indded useful because it woke me up just in time, to realise that i have no aims in life.

and i too realise, a lot of people find life meaningless because they have no aims. because with aims, your life path is created and you have a clear idea what to do and where to go. without aims, you're as good as nothing. you don't know where to go and what to and that's why you find life meaningless and then you start thinking why you are born into this world in the first place. i experience that too when i was in lower sec. i was still young, immature and a little 'depressed' in the brain. all i did was cracking jokes and be happy.

well, now that school is sort of over since we're having a e2 camp the week after next week, i've planned to really clear my sec 3 subjects by end of this year. THERE IS NO NEXT YEAR. if o'levels comprises of sec1-4 work, then there is really no time to waste. and i'm starting tomorrow. i want to do some planning for today. and probably cherish the moments using this computer. muahahahah!

aites. better be off.

''In memories, we are rich.'' -mr tan th.

2005-10-27T22:14:00.000+08:00

3E5'05!

2005-10-27T22:13:00.000+08:00

the ladies of 3e5. hmm..except for the one at the extreme right. HAHAH!

2005-10-27T22:12:00.000+08:00

on our way to smbwng holding campus. and my enormous head,

2005-10-27T21:38:00.000+08:00

blogger's being an idiot. wrote so long yet 'blog not found'. what?!!
i'll summarise what i have to say.

-principal's leaving to continue studies. 3rd vice-principal taking over.
-some people can't be bothered to be more hardworking.
-sembawang holding campus has loads of creepy crawlies. eew!
-promoted to sec 4 but still some sort pending. since we have to take a test once school reopens to see if we still rmbr sec 3 work. bummer!
-life next year quite unfair. principal change/new school with loads of creepy crawlies which can then be turned into a insect shop or exhibition/o'levels in smbwng and collecting results over there too/no more wonderful form teachers,ms wong and mr teo
-i have to make sacrifices and study harder, but some things that i can't really sacrifice :-

harry potter and the goblet of fire movie. ron weasley looks good with long hair but harry potter looks weird. but the guy playing cedric diggory is hot! especially in the movie poster in LIME magazine. freaking hot! and yes, some of the girls in my class are planning to watch m.a.i.d

GAHHHHHH!

p.s aahkayyy, i'll go post some pictures.

edited.

2005-10-26T22:00:00.000+08:00

can people please announce any important messages earlier. it's no fun when you have to ask around and confirm whether it's true or not when it's already after school hours and at night. grrr! i'm trying to ask as many people as possible about it.
i've got some comments on my ashlee simpson layout. i have to agree that the brushes are indeed unnecessary. makes the whole thing look ugly actually. so i'm going to re-submit the skin then.

i'm really worried. where is ms wong?? she's supposed to call my mom to confirm about tomorrow's meeting. gahhhh! i'm out of here.

people. please confirm your announcements before sending it out. it's irritating. thanks!

2005-10-26T17:06:00.000+08:00

quick post before i crash. school was fine. dance and drama performances. filled up surveys. and my mom is 'invited' to come to school and meet my teacher. and teacher said that those parents who are 'invited' is because they are being laterally transfered/retained, cca or conduct problems or advanced cases. i'm really wishing i'm one of the advanced cases. cca/conduct problem is totally out. i'm really worried.

and my dad just called to say the camera isn't working. god! everytime something is spoilt, i'm the cause of it. just because i use it before him, he accuse me of it. sometimes, my family members are jsut so impatient. they expect things to be advanced and instant. even this computer. sometimes, it doesn't switch on when the power is on and they will come and find me saying i destroy it. yeah right! the computer can still switch on lah!just that they don't have patience. i know this computer more than they do so stop accusing me of anything. even the camera also, i don't think it is spoilt. just need a little re-adjustments before it's alright again. too bad. all they want is instant everything. might as well fast forward to the future where people will live in outer space and cars will be spaceships. if i spoil something, most of the time i can or it can be fixed.

whatever. i'm worried and now i'm pissed off.
and that guy shouldn't have crash my dad's car. if he didn't do that, my dad won't be mad, i don't have to upload pictures of the damage and adjusting it into a diskette and the camera will also not be used . GAHHHHHH! why does all these have to happen now?!

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my skins. rate and comment.

ooooooh BOY!

2005-10-25T21:24:00.000+08:00

okay. so the lorry driver was a malay guy and he drives the gardenia lorry thing. i think got too much bread blocking his view or something. and my dad just got me to upload the pictures into a diskette. good thing he didn't run away. at least he was responsible. not some crazy bastard who acts as if it's just a dream. took back my harsh words. SORRY.

sentosa pictures up soon. once the others upload them then i'll try either linking them or putting them up on SNAP!shots. Nights.

i am my own superman!

2005-10-22T15:42:00.000+08:00

i read a few of my friends' blogs and i found out that some of the pupils are being transfered to NA. Though, they're not my classmates, but still, they're my friends and it is really sad. i know my class to will have to go through this kind of thing and we still don't know who's going, who's staying and it is worrying. i already told a few of my classmates that i don't want to lose any of the classmates next year because it's already one year we've been through all the naggings, scoldings, sec 3 camp etc. and the bond is somehow, strong.

but whatever the future has in store for us, we must never give up and admit that we failed. if we did, we'll live as failures all the way till death and that's a no no. s'pore is a fast-paced, growing and developing society and if we live as failures, there will be nothing called success in our lives. take this as a lesson, learn from it and move on. crying is no use but sometimes it does helps, in a way .

do whatever we can to achieve whatever we want. after all, nobody is going to stop you from achieving your dreams. people cannot put you down, YOU put yourself down.

STRIVE HARD PEOPLE!

dear darling.

2005-10-21T21:28:00.000+08:00

I won't say much about the results. But for all i know, i really thank the friends who tried to cheer me up when i was down, when i was worried about what will happen to me next year, when i was upset that i did not do well in my exams because i was too playful to realise the seriousness of school etc. these are the friends who will stand by you when you need them the most. though, i cheered up a bit, i still am grateful that there are such people like you guys, who helped me a lot.

new layout.

and i want to read more of meg cabot's books. especially 'the mediator' series. i thought the whole story was in the bloody book but NO, there is more. and it is hard to get these kind of books in the library so i probably will go buy them. ouh, and 'my sister from the black lagoon' by laurie fox is quite interesting. i think i love to read books to do with mentally ill people. it IS interesting, no kidding. can anybody please tell me if you know of any books related to this? because it's frustrating to go to the library but i hell don't know what books to borrow.

aites. i'm off.

#2 post for the day.

2005-10-17T21:32:00.000+08:00

Ohwells, since i'm online, i might as well post something again. my dad asked me to check out some stuff on the net and i've done that so now, i'm trying to do the layout thing. and my family's probably going to cameron highlands again, this time, by car. i'm not really into the idea since it's end november and there's most probably still going to be school and stuff like that and by car?! i'd prefer by bus. more convenient. but it's not really confirm yet because my dad wasn't really interested much in the idea. it'll be quite a rush since it's a 3D/2N trip and the trip to cameron will probably take up the whole day. the last time i went there, it took us the whole night. we left s'pore with the others at 9pm and reached the top of cameron by around 9am, with occasional stops lah.

and i finally step into the library today. haven't been reading for quite a while, with school and exams etc. i saw mrs ong(dnt) and a few yts peeps. the good thing about reading is that it makes you fall asleep easily. and just now, i was thinking about the courses i want to take after O's and i made the decisipn that if i fail to get into mass comm, then i shall take visual communications. temasek poly is indeed FAR but if i have want to take, then i don't mind. wahhh! so determined seyy! :D

and now, my throat is so sore. it's a killer! but my voice hasn't much difference though. maybe it'll be much better tomorrow, hopefully.

i'm still learning.

2005-10-16T17:22:00.000+08:00

GAHHHH! I'm too tired to do continue with my current 'layout'. And everything in the My Documents is in a mess. I deleted every single folder in My Pictures. I can't stand seeing the things so disorganised. I don't care if I'm going to lose any important stuff. It's about time i do some cleaning on this computer. it's getting slower and slower. results out by this week most probably and i'm quite scared. kay, i'm out. too tired to continue.

BOO!

2005-10-15T20:38:00.000+08:00

don't put words up in my mouth
i didn't steal your boyfriend

I like the intro to the song. Not the lyrics but just the music. :D This layout's temporary. i'm still figuring out how to do the layers thing. it is so hard and troublesome. i'm still learning and going on to different websites to check the skins and figuring out how they do such awesome layouts. just sometimes i wish i can blog about things, and they're all composed inside my head but when i really want to type them out, they're gone. sickening.

exams are finally over and i was late for the last paper. school starts at 0830 but i was there 0840. and i had to meet the DM. thank god he let me off, or us off since there were jiajun and sathiya too. i didn't studied for dnt at all but thankfully, some questions are more common sense or i've went through it during practical lessons so i knew how to answer it. all the results will come in next week. i so can't wait.

and my family's probably going to geylang tomorrow. the only thing that we go there for is the food. there's practically nothing to buy there minus clothes. everywhere you go, there is a food stall. so yes, i'm going there after break fast and there's gonna be a whole lotta peopleeee . .

ooh great! it's dnt tomorrow.

2005-10-11T15:35:00.000+08:00

Urgh! One more damn paper and it's going to be O-V-E-R. I don't expect any A's though, but I will be surprised if I do get an A, besides MT. That is if i do get an A lah. And these few days, we approached some of the subject teachers and we asked them about the results so far and they shake their heads left-right-left-right. GAHHH! And so far from register no 1 to 24, maths paper1, only 3 passes. 3 PASSES?! and obviously i'm not one of them. and my science are below expectations already! please, let me pass english pleaseee!! and POA was a total nightmare. i suck totally at balance sheet and all that stuff. oh my! my final year results are really heartbreaking, heart-wrenching, blood-boiling etc. how can like this one? and my mom asked me and my sister to break our fast over at my granny's place. YAY!

how can i get over it?

i'll dump you in the ocean and i'll bring back whatever you're wearing as a souvenier.

2005-10-07T23:26:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHAH! The title is eeeww.. I'm tired, sleepy, lethargic, exhausted, worn out, etc. Just got back from prayers or terawih. I feel stress-free though I'm tired but yes, I didn't lose focus during the prayers. Somehow, i really put my heart and soul into doing it. i came with a willingness to do the prayers so i guess, that is why i don't feel tired doing the prayers but i can feel the after effects of it. probably because i haven't had a good sleep these few days. with the exams going on, sleep doesn't matter to me anymore.

and i'm disappointed with myself for not putting effort in chemistry paper. and if i fail, i know i deserve it because i didn't focus on the paper much. i was almost falling asleep. GAHHH! poa and dnt papers left. at least, it is not that stressing but poa worries me though. and while the dnt students are cracking their brains to scribble down something for theory paper, the art people will be painting their masterpieces. SO FUN! i miss doing that. painting i mean. and i still remember that i drew gross stuff for art exams. like a head/hand of someone and i replaced their 5 senses with like eg. the eyes, i replaced it with an egg with a crack. then i drew worms for the hair. and the last 'masterpiece' was to do with broken and i drew this guy who hanged himself. and i don't think the marker interprated anything related to broken so i got a pathetic C6.

and i read ANE-nda's blog and she mentioned about the outing thing. 25th october, every single class will be going out of school to the place of their own class choice. and i can't hardly wait! at last, we are going somewhere outside school. the class hasn't decide yet but wherever we're going, there is going to be loads of fun and laughter.

righto. i need to sleep, badly.

Hello again.

2005-10-05T17:36:00.000+08:00

Oooooh! Wow wee! I'm back to blogger again. That's because I managed to get the damn language thing fixed or else I have to read symbols. It's either my computer is f-ed up or I am. Doing MT paper is a good way of putting me to sleep. Not because it was such an easy peasy paper or it is a boring paper, but I'm just sleep. Haven't been getting much rest these days. Exam period cracks my brain up. I'm willing to sacrifice my sleep to study. WOW! Can't believe I just said that.

The damn physics paper tomorrow. GAHHHH! Shower and revison next. Bye all!